day 190: what to say

subject: my low
why? There is not really much to post about this day. It was just a low of a day for me. Not sure why. It was one of those days where if I could crawl back in bad and start it over, I would have. From the moment the first person (and there were several) cut me off in the car. To the lady in the waiting room who carried on a cell phone conversation while the sign that said no cell phones was on the wall directly across from her. To discovering my son had 3 cavities. And then I just had a melt down. My son (though is generally accident free) peed, and then pooped twice in his pants and I lost it somewhere around the second bath and the second load of laundry. My tears only caused laughter for my son. It was truly a low.
And when I reflected on the day, and while I was reflecting on the day while living in it. I kept thinking, this is all nothing. It is all truly nothing. People have it worse then me. This is a blip in a day. Why do I even feel the need to compare to recognize that people have it worse than me. I was even down to questioning being a mother. And how I feel like I am failing miserably that I cannot get my child to listen that he doesn't want to tell me when he needs to go to the bathroom. That I have failed by giving him juice and too many sweets and now he has cavities.

Anyway- so what am I upset about? That which is beyond my control. I can control myself, I can control my actions. I can control how I respond to situations, or people, etc.  And I am just trying my best. I believe that God is the ultimate blessed controller of all things. He has a hand in my life. He has blessed me beyond measure and I am so grateful he has given me the opportunity to embrace motherhood. Even if some days I think I am not cut out for it and I feel defeated by a 3 year old. I pray every day and all the time for the Lord's help and one verse that helps me in times like this is
^{Philippians 4:13} For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.

And it is days like today that Christ gives me the strength I need to make it through.

Oh and it felt so good when my husband came home and gave me a warm hug.

So for those of you moms who are reading this- hopefully you will feel you are not alone when you have a low day.  And if you can't relate to this story- you are really blessed.